Monday, May 31, 2004

Tiring Day

I think I've bitten off more than I can chew this time... I'm currently in a harassed state because of the tons of things which I have to do... I enrolled in 5 subjects which really need an excessive amount of work... As of the moment, my requirements amount to 2 book reviews, 2 individual reports on separate topics which are to be done both orally and in written form, 1 book review, a summary of Confessions of a MAsk by Mishima and midterms and finals... Throw in the usual amount of quizzes, tests, and graded recitations...

Currently tired, mired...


Saturday, May 29, 2004

After the 1st week of the class

Classes started last Monday, May 24 and prior to that, I did not have any sort of vacation, well maybe except for my Negros vacation with Elwyn, since I have my summer classes... I just would like to look at the week that was...

Monday: May 24. the official start of the classes... and to think that I'm now in the 4th year level, senior !!! and i can't believe that I'm nearing the end of my formal education.. I hurriedly subscribed in the Green and White and filled up the application form since I have already 5 terms left so as to finish my double degree. I arrived around 7:30 and signed up in the Green and White for about 5 minutes and went to the library so as to activate my account... Left the library to have the International Studies class... which turned out to be quite the professor from hell... then, off to my Modern European History class where I found out that the Professor in the course will be my former teachers in Prehistoric Philippines and Spanish Philippines... which turned out to be quite an ok thing because he is a generous teacher and always the workload is kinda light... then, Philippine Nationalism is my next class and it turned out to be that the Professor in that subject is my former professor who is kinda amazed with me and has given me a 4.0 in both Philippine History and JPRizal... oh well...

Tuesday: May 25. 2nd day of classes... woke up late and became late in the first meeting of Eastern Asian History where we will discuss the histories of China, Japan, Korea and Taiwan... Coming into this subject, I'm quite confident because of my intense love for history in high school and it in this subject that I have gathered a 99 as my final grade... Turned out to be that the professor in this subject is my professor in PHILOHI... and it made me kinda cringe because I may be turned off again by his uncalled for brashness... LITERA2.. World Literature and it turned out to be an international class as well... Our professor is Japanese, I've got a classmate who is an Indonesian, an Australian, an American, and 2 Dutch ladies... Emphasis of the literature studies will be Asian and specifically Japanese literature...

Wednesday: May 26. 3rd day of classes... I HATE AND ABHOR the FROSHIES !!! So uber noisy, so uber noisy and could i just say so uber noisy again... Man, looking back, I never thought that the future freshmen will be noisier than us... but what the heck, they're so annoying... oh well, the joys of being a freshmen and the angsts of being a senior... Bamboo performed during the University Break and the people almost partied in the heat of the afternoon sun as the group sang the head-bashing "Pinoy" and their other hits off their album... Then, went to Harrison Plaza so as to buy some stuffs for school and feasted on Takoyaki balls with Elwyn... Then, as we're heading towards Starbucks we saw Minat, my lesbian friend and her lover, Chay... Then we chatted and sort of double-dated and talked about matters... It turned out to be that its Minat's and Chay's 5th anniversary and I kinda admire and envy them for having maintained that relationship for so long.. Good luck to them..

Thursday: May 27. 4th day of classes... Did not understand anything about my Litera class and Elwyn and I had a fight... Mighty horrible day for me..

Friday: May 28. 5th day of classes... Mikee, my friend and confidante again appeared in the classes and it was mighty swell and fun since she's so liberated and funny that I never had a hard time telling more of myself to her... SO uber happy..

Saturday: May 29. 6th day of classes... Turned out to be that my saturday class is dissolved, hence i will be able to attend Friday contingents... oh well.... and REFUND !!! yES !!!

Econ's song of the Moment: Heat Wave by Jennifer Hudson.. I'm currently listening to my mp3's of the American Idols and MOTOWN Night is my fave theme week... Just liked to dance and bop... and I'm so enamored with Jennifer Hudson's version of this song...

Heat wave
Heat wave

Whenever I'm with you
Something inside
Starts to burn deep
And my heart's filled with fire
Could be that I'm very sentimental
Or is this just the way love's supposed to be?

I got a heat wave
Burning in my heart
I can't keep from crying
Tearing me apart

Sometimes she calls my name
Yeah, yeah, yeah, I can't explain
I feel, yeah I feel
I feel this burning flame
This high blood pressure's got a hold on me
'Cause this is the way love's supposed to be


Oh yeah
Oh yeah

Oh yeah
Oh yeah

Just give me another chance
This could be a new romance

Heat wave
Heat wave
Heat wave
Heat wave

Friday, May 28, 2004

AI Top Performances (in no particular order)

AI is still in my system and I can't get rid of it... Here are in my personal opinion the best performances in the 3rd installment of American Idol...

1.) Amy Adams. "Sin Wagon" (Country Week)
2.) Camille Velasco "Son of A Preacherman" (Soul Week)
3.) Camille Velasco "One Last Cry" (2nd group of 8)
4.) Camille Velasco "Desperado" (Country Week)
5.) Diana De Garmo "I've Got the Music In Me" (1st group of 8)
6.) Diana De Garmo "No More Tears" (Enough Is Enough) (Disco Week)
7.) Fantasia Barrino "Something to Talk About" (1st group of 8)
8.) Fantasia Barrino "Always on My Mind" (Country Week)
9.) Fantasia Barrino "Summertime" (Movie themes)
10.) Fantasia Barrino "I Believe" (Finale)
11.) George Huff "Lean On Me" (Wild Card Round)
12.) George Huff "Dock of the Bay" (Soul Week)
13.) George Huff "Take Me to the Pilot" (Elton John Week)
14.) Jasmine Trias "Run to You" (4th group of 8)
15.) Jasmine Trias "Inseperable" (Soul Week)
16.) Jasmine Trias "You're All I Need to Get By" (Motown Night)
17.) Jasmine Trias "I'll Never Love This Way Again" (Barry Manilow Night)
18.) Jasmine Trias "Almost Like Being in Love" (Big Band Night)
19.) Jennifer Hudson "Imagine" (1st group of 8)
20.) Jennifer Hudson "Heatwave" (Motown Night)
21.) Jennifer Hudson "Circle of Life" (Elton JOhn Week)
22.) Jennifer Hudson "Weekend in New England" (Barry Manilow Week)
23.) John Stevens "She's always a Woman" (4th group of 8)
24.) Jon Peter Lewis "This Old Heart of Mine" (Motown Night)
25.) La Toya London "All By Myself" (3rd group of 8)
26.) La Toya London "Don't Rain on My Parade (Big Band Night)
27.) Leah Vladowski "I Have Nothing" (3rd group of 8)
28.) Leah Vladowski "You Keep Me Hanging On" (Soul Week)
29.) Katie Webber "Orange-Colored Sky" (1st group of 8)
30.) Lisa Leuschner "Sweet Thing" (2nd group of 8)
31.) Matthew Mettzger "Walkin in Memphis" (1st group of 8)

Thursday, May 27, 2004


I don't know how things turned out to be quite real bad for me and elwyn... It all started after we met after my Litera2 class and we sort of hang out in University Mall... We're sitting in the benches there smoking and eating the muffins we bought over Kenny Roger's and basically asking each other as to the status of our classes... Since he has about 4 classes today, Politics and Governance,GEnders, anthropology and the class where we were both together< Eastern Asian History... Everything is going out smoothly until he began ranting that his groupmates are such a sore bunch... But what alarmed me is when he said that all his groupmates are bisexuals/homosexuals... Jealousy reared its angry head... Then, he told me that he has to meet his groupmates so as to have a "review" session in their impending test tomorrow.... I immediately said that I was not feeling well and I have to go home.... which I did...

I'm feeling quite sick and mired by the whole matter... Elwyn or Jhay as he is known by most people in DLSU has a tendency to give in to the whims of the flesh... I'm quite scared that he may give in to this "groupmates"... because I know that his defense is quite low and he really is a hedonist... I don't want to raise a fight and have hell with him at a public place but it really pains me if the thing that I'm dreading for happens... I can't help but feel possessive of him since I'm already his lover and as far as I remembered the relationship that I entered is an exclusive one... Hell I have given him everything and whiled away with his whims, but please don't let that despicable thing happened... but it seems to me that it's gonna happen... I want to talk to him in private or even accompany him in the pad of his classmate but he just shrugged off my proposals... I don't know if ever I could trust him fully...........


After my 8 o clock class which ended around 10, I immediately went home so as to watch the finale of American Idol and it turned out to be Fantasia's show as she dominated the stage and again outclassed Diana to become the third American Idol following the foot steps of Kelly Clarkson and Reuben Studdard... what a season of AI.... hohumm....

Thursday Writer's block

I can't think of anything to write about... my life's been quite uneventfull... got to change that...

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Wednesday Post

My professor in INSTUDI (International Studies)turned out to be quite the teacher from hell. He's just a green horn yet he struts his pompous ass over the platform makes me wanna puke over the garbage can in front of him... I don't like his teaching strategy where one has to stand up if he has not manage to answer the questions given... I mean, I'm questioning here the appropriateness of the punishment given to the individual... we're college students and I think we're quite aware of our responsibilities plus the punishment is severely inappropriate... I felt quite sad for the cute guy who has to stood for over an hour because he has not manage to answer that fucking question... oh well that's life...

Book being read: Confessions of a Mask by Yukio Mishima. Our professor in world literature is a Japanese... I can't understand or decipher a thing he's saying but all the same, I think the subject is very interesting. We're focusing in Asian Literature and he's assigned us reading 2 novels, The Temple of the Golden Pavillion and Confessions of a Mask. I'm currently reading the latter and it turned out to be quite a good read... it's about homosexuality and the other angsts of a Japanese homosexual during the times when homosexuality in Japan is considered to be a taboo by the people... Quite interesting to read and eloquently written... somewhat journal style but very gripping...

AI UPDATE: Diana De Garmo and Fantasia Barrino already sang and competed... Diana sang "I Believe", "No More Tears(Enough is Enough)" and "Don't Cry Out Loud"... On the other hand, Fantasia sang "I Believe", "All My Life" and "Summertime"... who will win... I can't wait till tomorrow...

who will emerge as the AI



Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Term Starts

It seems to me that almost everyone has entered a writing snag... The most prolific writers all encountered a writer's block. Even I have encountered this severe fever of not writing in my blog... But what the heck, I think it's time to shake up and liven up...

The rainy week in Negros did not prevent Elwyn and I from having some hot encounters in the sugar cane fields... and the thing is that he caught a certain kind of cold after being drenched in the rain...

Oh well, seems to me that the ODDERs have enjoyed their summer breakaway in Montemar... tsk tsk... pity I can't come since our car was stucked in traffic going north and the rains are coming down in torrents...

Yesterday, term started... I've made up a resolution now... Never will I ever again have an excess number of absences despite being in the dean's list. That's the lesson I will never forget... Fuck that Tauro-Batuigas...

I filed a grievance against that witch... hopefully, Justice will be served and not denied...

Professors for the history classes are quite cool since I've been under them for a certain subject for a certain term so workload will not be great... Just hopes this term will erase that horrible stigma of failure due to absences...

Met a couple of whammy classmates for my International Studies class yesterday... most of them are incoming economics major... prospects, tempting but I have to pass...

Econ's song of the moment: Something to Talk About. Since the history majors are already nosing up and digging up my relationship with Elwyn, I kinda adapted a so what and fuck them attitude... so who cares about me being a homosexual... screw them...


People are talkinn 'bout people
I hear them whisper, you won't believe it
They think we're lovers kept under covers
I just ignore it, but they keep saying
We laugh just a little too loud
We stand just a little too close
We stare just a little too long
Maybe they're seeing something we don't, Darlin'.

Let's give them something to talk about
Let's give them something to talk about
Let's give them something to talk about
How about love?

I feel so foolish, I never noticed
You'd act so nervous,
Could you be falling for me?
It took a rumour to make me wonder
Now I'm convinced I'm going under
Thinking 'bout you every day
Dreaming 'bout you every night
Hoping that you feel the same way
Now that we know it, let's really shoe it, Darlin'.

Let's give them something to talk about
Let's give them something to talk about
Let's give them something to talk about
How about love, love, love, love?
Let's give them something to talk about
A little mystery to figure out
Let's give them something to talk about
How about love, love, love, love?

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

End of Summer

Today, I just have our final examinations in one of my summer subjects while our course cards were given in the other one. I got a 3.5 which is quite good considering I quite bummed out in the subject. Good thing is that I have perfected the final examinations yesterday despite not reading anything in the subject. Tomorrow, the summer classes will officially end. And thus ended my summer stint... Basically, having a summer class is quite okey for me... Just lost plenty of time to be at home....

Elwyn and I had a fight... hope we can reconcile it later....

Monday, May 17, 2004

Outreach Program

After coming home from Quezon and celebrating the Pahiyas festival with Elwyn, I immediately went to catch some zzzz's because we are going on an exposure trip to one of the communities that DLSU is helping the following day... Woke up around 5 in the morning because I have to rush and hurriedly type my take home test which is about the recurring problems about the Philippine education system. Good thing, I have already started typing it so I just have to type the remaining of the paper.

After finishing the paper around 8, I hurriedly took a shower, grab my planner and a book (i would not like to be stranded in any place without a reading material) and went to Mc Do DLSU branch because it's the designated meeting place. While taking the shower, I looked at my face and I looked plain hagard: my eyes are bloodshot, my skin is so uber pasty and I think I have been stretching myself this whole term and I'm so mighty tired. On the way out, I grabbed 2 boxes of Kenny's corn muffins and a mineral water bottle since I have not yet eaten my breakfast and hurriedly flagged down a taxi because I'm already late.

When I've arrived in the meeting place, I was surprised to see that I'm the first one there and then the people slowly drifted in. After that we were given pointers by our professor. Four our morning session, we were tasked to conduct a seminar regarding the program of DLSU called the CPR which is the " Caucus for Poverty Reduction" which is like a micro-finance lending institution where poor people will be lent money by the institution so that they could start rebuilding their lives. The seminar went okey and the response was overwhelming.

Then, we went to our professor's house where we were catered and fed different dishes because it was fiesta and also the birthday of our prof's mother. Then came the afternoon session where we played parlor games with kids. It was so much fun dealing with kids coz they are innocent, they're not jaded and they're very much cooperative with what you are saying to them. We played pass the message, trip to jerusalem, the tableau thingie, and other games. It's such a nice thing that the group that I'm handling is very much cooperative and attentive to me and my friends so we won almost all of the games. Then we're treated to a nice afternoon chat, iddling around, playing, and even eating "dirty ice cream". The whole experience was such a good break because it made me forget about all the problems of being an adult and made me feel like I'm a child over again. It made me feel like I'm innocent again. And what made me feel very happy is the respect that I have garnered from the children. It made me feel good a lot especially when I'm the only one among the group whom they've waved and shouted goodbye.

After that, we're off to Providence for some happy hour.. Drank 5 bottles of San Mig strong Ice in the process and many of my classmates were surprised because I seemed not to be drunk at all. Then, came videoke... Yikes....and the condition is that all of us were to sing 4 songs of the opposite gender, guys will sing women's songs and vice versa... secretly, I felt quite good but I shamed myself in front of them by singing " Can't Fight the Moonlight" by Leanne Rimes, "I Wanna Dance with Somebody" by Whitney, "Ironic" by Alanis Morissette and "The Power of Love" by Laura Brannigan... But, I got a respectable 98 on all the songs... =) then Elwyn dropped by and drove me home....

My voice is hoarse... I feel tired and shaky but guess what I'm happy... =)

picture of the man I've last dreamt:

Saturday, May 15, 2004

A Gay, A Lesbian and our Fag Hag and TROY

Yesterday night, I watched Troy along with my blockmates Minat and my best friend Shella at Megamall. It's because our classmate, Anton, gave us complimentary tickets to a special screening of the movie. Being the mythological buff that I am, I have high expectations about the movie. And I think the movie Troy did not fail to satisfy me and my friends... It's been such a long time when we all three went out. Minat is my lesbian friend whom I share my homosexuality with. And, since she's studying Lit which is way way different from what I'm studying, our summer classes proved to be a stonger bond and we culminated our re-bonding by watching TROY


A major thing which caputred my attention is the absence of the intervention of the gods in the movie. There are no Pallas Athena, Hera, Aphrodite, Apollo and Zeus there to help the Greeks and the Trojans in the battle. Also, it is quite illustrated in the movie that the personality of the warrior Achilles has been somewhat de-humanized. When you read Mythology by Hamilton, one could easily get the impression that he is almost god-like. In the movie, Achilles was personified as being such a sarcastic individual who is just human; has feelings, even had a threesome and a sex scene with Briseis, and also, an individual who has emotions.

The best character development of the movie I think belongs to Hector who was depicted by Eric Banna of Hulk. His character has been very much consistent since the start of the movie. I'd even consider him to be the star of the movie because his character is so well-developed and rounded by the movie. Meanwhile, Orlando Bloom is still sexy and yummy and I think he's too gorgeous to become that cowardly Paris. I can't keep myself from smiling when he was shooting arrows... a dejavu hit me... it's as if he's Legolas Greenleaf, the Elf of Mirkwood Forrest in the LOTR Trilogy... But I got to admit he's sexy enough to keep me hot... and sweating while watching the movie..

The characters of Achilles, and Helen were not that well developed and even modified in the case of Helen. It seemed to me that she's like a slut who can't get enough of hot men... But, I can't blame her since her husband is that pig Menelaus... and Agamemnon is the character to hate...

So many things have been changed and modified in the movie. Clytemnestra killed Agamemnon not Briseis. Paris did not escape alive with Briseis. Andromache, Hector's wife was enslaved by the Greeks while Hector's son, Astyanax was thrown from the walls of Troy. However, despite the many changes in the plot of the movie, I still enjoyed it... The soundtrack is really haunting and mesmerizing... It heightens the atmosphere of the scene and ignites my sense... Fight scenes are quite okey and I would like to point out the phalanx formation of the Greeks which aided them in the conquest of the beach of Troy. Basically, aesthetics are quite okey, visual effects are quite okey and they really paid attention a lot to the detail.

And I would like to say that all men are HOT !!!





After that, we capped our night off by going to a 7-11 shop and drinking a few bottles of beeR, reminiscing about the old times and our block adventures.... Then, came questions about love and relationship where I've admitted that Elwyn and I are already an item... and then, we went home...Such a fun, fun experience for me...

Friday, May 14, 2004

Fuckin' Friday...

Once again it's Friday... end of another busy week. can't think of anything to write about except for the fact that I'm going to watch TROY with Elwyn later at Megamall... hmmm... just plain tired... will probably be asleep the whole day... in about a couple of minutes... I'm about to drift off... Well, wait... I would like to share something first. I just found out that the guy whom I have this crush upon in our NONFORM class is gay too.... hmmm.... and it turned out to be that he's one of the guys whom my ex, Marlon had sex with while Marlon has a relationship with me.... hmmm... tsk...tsk... small world...

Thursday, May 13, 2004



yes, folks, Jasmine Trias has landed in the top 3 position after La Toya London was booted out of the competition. It was really quite a miracle since according to the reviews that the judges has gave Jasmine which I have read in Pinoyexchange, it seemed that all four of the judges are intent in setting Jazzy home to Hawaii... but, it seemed that the texters and callers all pulled their stops and saved Jasmine for next week's competition...

Jasmine will be battling it out with Diana De Garmo and Fantasia Barrino.. but i think the top 3 slot of Jasmine could be considered and viewed in two ways. One is that she could be the target of a hate-campaign which could cost her a final two slot despite of the way that she will dish out her performance next week. But the good thing is that she is still in the final 3... mighty go girl !!! btw, I think that if she could reacha final three, then a final 2 could be seen... Interesting demographics is shown... One white, One black, One Asian... hehehe...

go Jas !!!






Wednesday, May 12, 2004

Middle of the Week

I feel so mired... and tired... good thing is that my professor in NONFORM has praised and commended my lesson plan... good thing because at least he redeemed himself and finally noticed my extra efforts that I have exerted in his subject... So far so good, just have to file a grievance to that fucking filipino teacher 1st thing in the 1st term of the coming School year... damn her... schedule is kinda light with only 15 units... tentative schedule is

MWF: 8:10-9:10 INSTUDI
9:20-10:20 EUROMOD
10:30-11:30 PHILNAT

TTH: 8:00-9:30 EASASIA
4:20-5:50 LITERA2

got to change my litera2 to a different location... hmmm...

Yesterday's popoy

Elwyn and I decided to meet in Makati because he lives in one of the condos there.. I just called him to confirm the date and said that he could not pick me up because of the traffic that the so-called Victory March of Loren and FPJ... Arrived in his pad around 8:30... He prepared dinner; fettucini alfredo, white wine, and chicken... He gave me his present after our dinner... it turned out to be a collection of herbs and a cookbook from New Orleans... Mighty happy for that one, besides the usual chocolates and books, he has given me an original cd of the American Idol 3 Greatest Soul Classics Collection... and a burned collection of my favorite Mp3's from American Idol... plus, he has given me something else which I think is very, very, very kinky.... damn,... then hot, raunchy, unadulterated sex... he's like a sex demon and I can't resist his guile... damn... While cuddling up, we talked about the future.... about what is the real status between him and me, and the nasty and malicious notion that the other people has against us especially the fellow History majors.... it turned out to be that he's willing to take it to the next level with me... WE have become an item finally... mighty happy for that one ....i was kinda frazzled at his suggestion... hmmm.... so, did not answer him, instead, i just kissed him in the lips and got ready for another round....

damn, i don't want this relationship to end... or if ever it ends, please don't let him cheat on me...

note: i was kinda pleased with the new look of blogger... it's so fabulous with the total overhaul...

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

Happenings in Econ's life ala-24

Yesterday, I have finally exercised my right to vote. Being finally of legal age to finally have a say in the goings on of the politics of our country, the elusive opportunity to elect the president, vice president, senators and the other public officials which will make the policies for the land... But, I guess my high expectations on the whole voting process all crumbled down yesterday.

I was supposed to vote in the morning and finish up quite early because I have tons of things to do and lots of papers to read. So, after listening to the Radio Tabloid of the Zoo Crew which I think ended in around 7:15 and immediately went to the school where we were supposed to vote.

8:00 My hardships started when I arrived at the "precint"(is that what they call it) I was supposed to vote in. Being sandwiched by my sister whose name starts with A and my father whose name starts with L, I was supposed to be with them inside the same precint. But to my disgust, I can't find my name in the official voter's list that was printed by the COMELEC... damnit, good thing one of the teachers knew me(thank god since I have change a lot since my childhood days) and immediately helped me with my missing name in the list... So she searched it and was found to be in the same "precint" with my sister and father....

10:20 Finally, I'm sitting in the chair with my ballot and with my pen ready. But, I forgot my list of the candidates whom I'm gonna be voting for at home. For the local government, the task is kinda easy with me voting Atienza for mayor and his councillors... But, the task becames somewhat insurmountable as I have ascended and in the task of completing the list of the 12 senators. For some people, I immediately voted them in such as Mar Roxas, and Aquilino Pimentel along with Pia Cayetano. But after completing just half of the 12 slots, I have a hard time filling up the remaining 6 slots. I ran out of options... So, I decided to at least give one vote to the people who I think are deserving of the slot in the Senate but on the other hand, has no or slim chance of winning... So, I've spared some slots for Frank Chavez, the Solicitor General of FVR and Jun Yasay who is instrumental in bringing down the Estrada administration... But, there are still 4 slots left so I just put 3 marks there indicating that I'm not gonna vote fot the others...

11:20 I'm still not finished with voting... My sister and my father has already left me alone... Am still torn in voting in the president and vice-president slots... In the vice-presidential category, I was really adamant in voting for either Noli or Loren... Noli is an ignoramus, a bumbling person who just had the proper connections, at the proper time and has this charisma within him that makes him lovable(hmmm... w/ the masses)... On the other hand, Loren Legarda is very infamous... the political prostitute who immediately jumped ships when the odds are all against her... but on the other hand she's quite articulate and well-learned... the other two are not worthy of mentioning... rather than vote for a vp, i just cancelled that part of my ballot... i'd rather not choose from a political prostitute or the popular candidate who knows nothing... as for my president, I voted for Gloria... Roco has an almost nil chance of winning and i'd not vote for FPJ or Lacson... Moral alternative is Villanueva, but he doesn't appeal to me.. believing in Hamiltonian and Jeffersonian democracy, I'd voted for Gloria.... After the harrowing and exhausting experience, I went home to catch supper..

3:30 I'm still amazed with what transpired in the Survivor All-Stars... Amber Brkich became the Sole Survivor with a 4-3 decision over her fiancee Rob Mariano... damn... mighty amazed with that girl... She has improved a lot since Australian Outback... =) and props to Shii Ann Huang, my favorite All-Star castaway for winning the car and for Jenna Lewis for being such a gracious loser unlike Lex and Alicia... I'm still quite happy with the results...

6:00 I was just reading Cunningham's The Hours when the phone rang. I was just alone, sipping a bottle of San Mig Strong Ice because my father and my sister visited my uncle in Cavite bringing with them my pesky and snotty little sister. I was fucking amazed when I heard who was in the other line... Wham, Bham, Alakazzaaam... it's Elwyn saying that he has already arrived home... and he wants to see me... man, I've never felt so happy... finally, he has come back from the states... Chit-chatted a while... He said that he's already in his apartment and he wanted to set a date with me Tuesday, today.... mighty happy, saying that he has a surprise for me... Frankly speaking, I could not wait for him... I have been thinking a lot about him ever since he has left for the United States and eventhough when I've had sex with others, which is mighty fine with him, it is still him that I envision doing it...

10:00... damn, FPJ has surpassed Gloria...


7:30 damn... i just woke up... I'm going to be frigging late for my class..

8:30 arrived late in class but came mighty prepared...

12:00 had dinner with Shella and my other friends and I'm quite mighty happy that I have won a premiere seat ticket for the Movie epic "Troy" which is about to be shown this Friday... Won it via an Amazing Race like contest for my NONFORM and SOCPHIL joint class which tested our wits and strenghts... damn, i'm so tired, but it was worth it because i want to watch the movie and the prize consist of two tickets... maybe I'll bring Elwyn along...

can't wait till it's 7... wonder what's the surprise of Elwyn...

Econ's song of the Moment: Rock With You by Michael Jackson... To Elwyn, for a hot and raunchy reunion... i wanna rock with you baby...

Girl, close your eyes
Let that rhythm get into you
Don’t try to fight it
There ain’t nothin’ that you can do

Relax your mind
Lay back and groove with mine
You gotta feel that heat
And we can ride the boogie
Share that beat of love

I wanna rock with you (All night)
Dance you into day (Sunlight)
I wanna rock with you (All night)
We’re gonna rock the night away

Mmm, mmm

Out on the floor
There ain’t nobody there but us
Girl, when you dance
There’s a magic that must be love

Just take it slow
‘Cause we got so far to go
When you feel that heat
And we’re gonna ride the boogie
Share that beat of love

I wanna rock with you (All night)
Dance you into day (Sunlight)
I wanna rock with you (All night)
And we gon’ rock the night away

And when the groove is dead and gone, yeah
You know that love survives
So we can rock forever on

(I wanna rock with you)
(I wanna groove with you)
(I wanna rock with you)
(I wanna groove with you)

I wanna rock (All night)
With you, girl (Sunlight)
Rock with you, rock with you (All night), yeah
Dance the night away

I wanna rock with you, yeah (All night)
Rock you into day (Sunlight)
I wanna rock with you (All night)
Rock the night away

Feel the heat, feel the need (All night), woo
Rock you into day (Sunlight)
I wanna rock (All night)
Rock the night away

Saturday, May 08, 2004

A Son's Sentiments: Pre-Mother's Day Post

Dear Mother,

I sincerely miss you mom. Ever since that inevitable slide to the unfathomable abyss of that ailment, you have never been the same. From the dominating matriarch who has been the bastion of power in the house, the person who has been there for me whenever I need some advice, the jolly person who has been the one who attended my graduations, and bestowed upon me the different medals and awards especially during my elementary days, from the strict disciplinarian has sometimes terrified me and made me more aware of my wrongdoings, you have been caught into a downward spiral of deterioration.

I miss the different times we have shared together; our strolls in the malls while searching for the toys I want, taking me to the doctor whenever I was sick, even eating at fastfoods before going home.I was feeling for you when that sickness afflicted you... but instead of fighting, you have succumbed to it, you have let yourself be ensnared in that death clutch and I think it drained all the life and vitality from you. You have detached yourself from us and decided to become almost like a ghost; invisible, silent and just going with the flow. I have missed you in the times when I was going into the most difficult phase of my life. I cannot stand that any longer, hence my departure and sojourn in the Visayas. When I came back, I know that you will soon leave me and join the cherubic choirs in Heaven. I just want to make you happy...

Mom, I know that you are guiding me as I go to life. I know that you have been there for me, helping me tap into my inner reservoir of strengthas I go and face the many trials of life. Now that I'm in the 20's, I know I have become what I am due to you. I do not have any regrets or misgivings on who I am today. In fact, I have been mighty proud of what I have become thanks to you. Mom, thank you for bearing me into this world...

Your son,



Tomorrow will be the 2nd Mother's day which I will celebrate without my mom, Last year, I was in Cavite with my aunt and I dedicated a sucky poem which I have composed for her. My cousins and I treated her into a day at the mall, eating, playing in the arcade, shopping and a trip to the moviehouse where we watched x-2... Tomorrow, I don't have any definite plans. Maybe I would go to the cemetary and just visit my mother's grave in the morning and talk to her... I miss her so much....

Tons to do

Because of the long break, my professors has tasked us to do a lot of assignments including reading 100 pages of a treatise on the NONFORM Education and a lot of other stuffs to do. There's also a group assignment which I do not know how will we do since most of them will be either partying and sunbathing tomorrow with their families...

Econ's song of the Moment: You Raise Me Up by Josh Groban. To Mom, may the Transcendent One always protect you wherever you are, To my Family, for being there for me, to my Blockmates and High school Friends, for still remembering me and the different times we've managed to be together, and to the ODDERS, my family away from home, for helping me embrace my homosexuality, for helping me grow and helping me live life to the fullest...

"You Raise Me Up"

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

There is no life – no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

Friday, May 07, 2004


I'm currently not liking my professor in NONFORM. very much an arrogant, snotty and smarmy creature. He's such an egoistic, pompous piece who is so annoying. The most despicable thing about him is that he's very much a sexist and a homophobe too. That's the worst thing. I can't stand for 2 hours listening to him berating that homosexuals are this, homosexuals are that, women are like this, women are like that. Man, u're such an arrogant person. I mean, he just keeps on lambasting homosexuals and women that I can't stand it anymore and just replied to him that he should at least try to be more open to other studies and stuff like that and that we should return to the topic of Non formal education rather than go on bashing sexes which are way way degrading to the ladies of the class.... damnit

plus, i'm real irritated with this certain cross enrollee from PNU... as if he's fucking great. he just keeps on commenting that DLSU is an oppressive school because it does not give scholarships to bright students. Man, it's like insulting several of my friends who are on scholarship. Why can't he just shut his fucking trap... damnit...

Thursday, May 06, 2004

American Idol Update

Jasmine Trias is still in the competition !!!! After a somewhat non-stellar performance in the Big Band Night of AI, Jasmine was put into the bottom 2 with the one who was eliminated, George Huff. Jasmine is in the Final Four position now, she has to beat La Toya London, Fantasia Barrino and Diana De Garmo to be the next American Idol.. Next week is diva's week... and I think it really is the battle royale of the remaining AI finalists...

will it be the chubby yet powerful divette Diana De Garmo

or will it be the spunky and confident Fantasia Barrino

or will it be the quiet and sophisticated La Toya London

or our sweet Fil-American belter Jasmine Trias

Respite from Blogging

I was so tired yesterday after creating and animating and downloading pictures for my report Sexual Harassment... I'm very much mired... Seems to me there's no break or respite for this vicious cycle of work and studying... I'm getting burned out again... pOsitive note is that Elwyn's gonna come home May, 17.... just a few days away and I will be able to finally profess my love for him... I'd discover that he's mature enough to handle relationships and I guess I love him all the time I'm with him... damn...

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

Orange-Colored Sky... Wham, Bham, Alakazam

*all thoughts crossed my mind after about an hour of listening to Katie Webber's version of this song...

" I was walking alone, minding my business, when out of an orange-colored sky, Flash, bham Alakazam, Wonderful you came by"

I was using the YM yesterday afternoon and evening waiting for Elwyn to message me via ym that he's already online. So for the moment, I've opened up the IRC and looked for some persons there especially in the #masci channel. I was really looking for certain batchmates who are regular chatters of that channel so that I could have certain updates on the way their lives are going and also on the latest chikkas on my other batchmates. I managed to corner some of them but what the heck, they have given me the cold shoulder treatment and even ignored me... Hmmm... assholes and bitches, why give me the cold shoulder treatment when in fact i was the one who helped you in your history classes and gave you leakages in the economics classes. All of my life I have been always the odd man out and I'm really not liking it... I've considered them as close friends yet just after high school, they have forgotten over me....

On the other hand, i've found that there are several friends and ODDERS online and chatted with them eventhough for a while... I really, really felt good after that chat sessions...

"I was humming a tune, drinking in sunshine, when out of that orange colored view,Flash, bam, alakazam, I got a look at you"

Econ's Book of the Moment: After finishing Tolkien's The Hobbit, I borrowed from the library yesterday a copy of the Pulitzer winning novel, "The Hours". "The Hours" is by Michael Cunningham and this was the same novel from which the Academy Award winning movie, the Hours was lifted upon. I was not particularly impressed with the movie, but my opinion may or may not change after reading the novel.

"One look and I yelled timber, watch out for flying glass,‘Cause the ceiling fell in and the bottom fell out, I went into a spin, And I started to shout, I’ve been hit, this is it, this is it, it, it"

Movie Flick I'm currently interested in a new flick... After being disappointed in the movie, Man on Fire, there is another movie which is gonna be shown tomorrow. The movie is Van Helsing starring Hugh Jackman. The movie is gonna be loosely based on the character of Bram Stoker in the novel Dracula. I think that Dr. Van Helsing is one of the most prominent figures in the movie along with Mina Harker who has been included in the roster of the eccentric superhero group, "The League of Extraordinary Gentleman". Also, i think Van Helsing is the first vampire slayer in the history of both comicbooks, and novels... Anyway, previews show that Van Helsing is to travel in Transylvania, a region in central Europe (methinks, it's betweent the modern-day countries of Hungary and Romania), the place where the creatures of the night are apparently destroying life. I think he's about to encounter and battle a werewolf, the frankenstein monster and the king of vampires dracula. Being the mythological and literature buff that I am, I am sure want to watch this one. Well, eventhough I know i will be somewhat disappointed about the plot, I think it would be compensated by the effects in the movie, plus the charm of Hugh Jackman...

"I was walking along, minding my business, when love came and hit me in the eye,Flash, bam, alakazam, out of an orange, colored, purple stripes, Pretty green polka dot sky, flash, bam, alakazam, went the sky"

Finally, Elwyn has went online... Exchanged several romantic barbs here and there and basically he narrated his stay in Pennsylvania... Then he said that he's gonna be taking a drive towards the south and gonna be staying in New Orleans, Louisiana. I was very much green with envy because he's gonna be visiting New Orleans which is like a real wonderful place to visit if one is interested in culture and in the cuisines... He then asked me about the grade in Filipino which was not changed up to the present. I was really, really getting sleepy and said that I was living... Before I disconnected, he uttered the words which have shocked me, "I Love You".

This is the first time that he has said that word, and I don't know what to say to him... So I've just replied that Goodnight and send him a virtual kiss....hmmm... i think i'm getting entangled again with another man.... oh life...


Monday, May 03, 2004

The Amazing Race, SIAM, LEssons

The Amazing Race will premiere around july 6th. the official site is up. The contestants are about to be revealed just a couple of weeks and am so uber excited... another reality tv show... speaking of reality tv, one of my friends will be singing in Star in A Million... hope he does well..

just got through two tests for my summer subject, I think i kinda messed the objective parts of my social philosophy class but i think i did kinda well in the essays... got to prepare for a report in SOCPHIL this coming Thursday... damn, my nephew has exhausted me..

A weekend in Cavite

I was away visiting my relatives in Bacoor Cavite since the evening of Friday. I was planning to attend the contingent of the ODDERs but my cousin called saying that she's gonna be all alone in their house because her husband has left her again for the nth time. And the thing is that my aunt and uncle are still in Cebu and there's no one to look after the baby which is my "inaanak" and my pamangkin. His name is Benedict.

So, I immediately travelled to Cavite in order to baby-sit for my naughty nephew because my cousin is about to take her final examinations the following day. When I've arrived there, my cousin was crying and sobbing because her husband has left her again. I can't seem to figure out why they can't stop bickering and bitching over each other. Well, maybe it's because they married quite early(cousin is turning 21 this year while her husband is my age), or maybe they are not just meant for each other. Their relationship is quite mighty a haze for me to understand.. the courtship just lasted for several months and they married after just 5 months of dating. And I'm getting mighty sick of hearing her whine and cry... She does not deserve that jerk, eventhough he's quite hunky... If all you do in a relationship is cry, and if the love is really lost, then stop holding back and accept the truth that you can't be together... It's just migthy silly to hold on... just hoping for her to feel really good....

Positive things about my visit: I was able to touch bases again with my cousin. She's really been my confidante all this years and It's nice to talk to her again and reminisce the jolly ole good times such as where we went biking around the subdivision and we were chased by several dogs, the silly stunt where we jumped into the pool of our friend naked and other stuffs and pranks that we managed to pull over my other cousins...

Only bad thing about my visit: wasn't able to update my blog because i have to take care of my nephew... Eventhough there are certain times where she has been sleeping, I can't abandon him because he's too goddamn cute...

A though entered my mind.... Could I consider myself being a father to a child? hmmm... got to expound on that tomorrow while I'm doing my meditation..

Mossimo Bikini Summit.... I was just channel surfing yesterday trying to catch the rhythm and drowsiness so that I could fall asleep when i've chanced upon the Mossimo bikini summit which was televised yesterday. 12 hunky and totally hot men and 12 bodacious beauties... I was really attracted to 2 of the men there named Eugene Lee and Marlon(Marlon again...) Marco... damn... am just a sucker for chinky-eyed fellows... winners are:

Champion: Marco Grazzini and Thea Kriegl

First Runner-up: Myke Salomon and Tee Cordero

Second Runner-up: Aaron Bower and Asia Laurel

Chivas Smooth Spirit Award: Dane Hutchinson and Jenny Frerkes

Boss Image Model: Marlon Morco

Pearl of the Pacific Choice: Aaron Bower and Thea Kriegl

Gold's Gym Best Physique Award: Myke Salomon and Liz Festejo

Mr. and Ms. Hawaiian Tropic: Aaron Bower and Thea Kriegl

Internet Choice Award: Myke Salomon and Jenny Frerkes

Viva's Choice Award: Marco Grazzini and Abby Rangasajo

here's the link...
Mossimo Bikini Summit

Econ's song of the Moment: While I was in Cavite, my cousin has played this song over and over and over and over again that I began humming and humming and then I've started to sing it... it's a track from Ashanti's 2nd album, Chapter 2 and titled Rain On Me... hmmm.... actually, it's not one of the best tracks of Ashanti but I just got the lss after listening to it almost all day yesterday.....

Rain on Me


I'm lookin' in the mirror
At this woman down and out
She's internally dyin'
I know this was not what love's about

I don't wanna be this woman
The second time around
'Cause I'm wakin' up screamin', no longer believin'
That I'm gonna be around

And over and over I tried
Yet over and over you lied
Gettin' over and over my pride, yeah
I don't know why

And over and over I tried
Yet over and over you lied
Gettin' over and over my pride, yeah
I don't know why

Rain on me
Lord, won't you take this pain from me
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe
Baby, just rain on me
Lord, won't you take this pain from me
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe, no

See, I don't want to hold my pillow late at night no more
I'm tossin' and turnin' and thinkin' 'bout burnin' down these walls
I-I don't wanna fuel this fire no more, no more, no more
See, I made up my mind 'cause I've wasted my time
Ain't nothin' here to keep me warm

And over and over I tried
Yet over and over you lied
Gettin' over and over my pride, yeah
I don't know why

And over and over I tried
Yet over and over you lied
Gettin' over and over my pride, yeah
I cried, I cried, I cried, I cried, I cried


Rain on me
Lord, won't you take this pain from me
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe
Baby, just rain on me
Lord, won't you take this pain from me
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe, no

I'm so tired of the rain
In my life
And I'm so tired of the strain
And now you're gonna lie

'Cause sometimes I can't sleep at night and
This here it just don't seem right and
Sometimes I just wonder why I
Don't know, let my life go by

'Cause sometimes I can't sleep at night and
This here it just don't seem right and
Sometimes I just wonder why I
Don't know, let my life go by


Rain on me
Lord, won't you take this pain from me
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe
Baby, just rain on me
Lord, won't you take this pain from me
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe, no

Rain on me
Lord, won't you take this pain from me
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe
Baby, just rain on me
Lord, won't you take this pain from me
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe, no

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